I don’t know what’s more important: a doctor or my diabetes, but I have to do what I can to manage it.
So I started getting tested.
I went to the clinic every day.
I didn’t get the test results, so I went home and thought about it.
What would be the most effective thing I could do?
What would it take to keep my doctor from having to prescribe me a new medicine?
The answer was to keep the doctor away from me.
I was in the hospital.
I was not well.
I had two things that kept me in the ICU: 1) the constant pressure of being in the intensive care unit, and 2) a very strong desire to get out of there and do something else.
So when the doctor came in, I started to ask him, “What would you want me to do?”
It took me a while to realize that if I was going to make it this far, I had to be willing to do whatever it took to get to the end.
The doctor had a lot of control over me.
He was very supportive.
He wanted to see me well and get a good scan.
But he wanted to do everything he could to make sure I stayed home.
And I did.
I would come home and spend most of my time with the doctor.
So he didn’t even have to ask me, “How are you?”
He could just say, “Are you okay?”
So I just tried to follow his directions.
If he told me to take a medicine, I’d do it.
If I was on insulin, I would take it.
He could give me a test, too, if he wanted.
But if he said, “No, I’m going to give you a blood test,” I would do that.
But the best part was that it wasn’t really the doctor who was making me do it, but me.
I just felt a sense of empowerment.
It was just like being in a relationship.
It wasn’t as much about the doctor or the doctor’s words, but about me.
So it became a way of healing my relationship with the world.
So for me, it was like a healing journey.
But I think it was very powerful because for so many people, their relationship with their doctors is so fragile and complicated.
So you have to have trust.
You have to believe in what they’re doing.
You can’t just take the doctor at his word.
I always felt like I was under their spell, even though I knew that was not true.
And then I had the support of my family, my friends, my community.
I have so many things to say about this, but one thing that I wanted to say is that it was the support and support of a community that helped me through this journey.
That was one of the most powerful things about going to the hospital, because that support was there in the community, and they helped me along the way.
So the doctors, the nurses, the other nurses.
They all helped me.
You know, I feel like I did it for my community, but for me it was more about helping my community through this.
So that was a very powerful thing, and I’m grateful for it.
It helped me to feel more secure in my own body.
But it was also a powerful thing because I had a community to help me through it.
And in my community I was able to really be myself.
My family and my friends supported me, and then my community supported me.
Now that I have diabetes, my family and friends have helped me, but it wasn.
That community has always been there for me.
And that’s why I feel good about it now.
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